Day, Week, Month

I haven't turned to the cards in awhile. I had a couple of professional readings last month, and haven't felt a real need. But today I felt the deck Tarot of White Cats calling, so I decided to do a reading.

While shuffling the cards, I felt I needed to do a Day, Week, Rest of the Month reading, so I pulled three cards. Here they are:

Day: The Sun
I normally don't read reversed cards, but this one appeared reversed, and I think in today's case the reversed meaning applies. See, Chris is on vacation today, and it's Michelle's regularly scheduled day off, so it's just me and Dennis... which equals stress for me. So The Sun is usually a card of happiness, but reversed I'd say unhappiness.

Week: King of Chalices (Cups)
Wow. Well, the King in this card is on his throne, looking calm and peaceful while surrounded by water in a sea. The sea also seems calm, although there are clouds in the background indicating that perhaps a storm is moving in.

With Chris on vacation, I have no doubt that a storm will be moving in here at work. (And also quite literally, we are expecting another storm here in Reno). This card is calling me to be calm, wise and tolerent in the next week.

Calm? Wise? TOLERENT? Me? We'll see... I can work on it, though, I suppose!

Rest of the Month: The High Priestess
The High Priestess is a card I almost always have trouble deciphering in readings concerning myself. The keywords for this card are Nonaction, Unconscious Awareness, Potential and Mystery. I have to say, I'm having trouble putting those words together with what to expect for the rest of the month.

In regards to work, which I think is my biggest concern considering that Chris will be gone for the next two weeks, the keyword "Potential" stands out. Although I hate dealing with stuff I don't have to (i.e. other people's responsibilities), I suppose I actually have the potential to be a success in Chris' absence.

Thing is, I don't want to. But I don't have a choice... she's gone and I have to deal.

Vassago

The other night in class, my instructor, Steve, led us in an exercise to contact the spirit Vassago for some "information gathering."

Using tarot cards, the circle was called. Steve called Vassago. The woman who acted as vessel had a stack of tarot cards (minor arcana, aces removed), and we proceded to ask Vassago questions, and "the vessel" would put tarot cards down on one of the ace cards on the table, illiciting a "Yes," "No," "Maybe," or "Ask another question" response.

When it was my turn to ask a question, I asked "Will I get the job at KOLO?" The answer was maybe. Steve asked me if I wanted the job. I said I wasn't sure. A couple of the more learned people laughed, and then Steve explained that Vassago isn't a fortune teller; he can only give information on known things. So, in other words, if I didn't know if I wanted the job, my indecision would not give Vassago a clear vision on the answer.

Steve suggested I be more precise in my question, and gave me a couple of examples. So I asked "If I apply for the job at KOLO, will I get it?" And Vassago said "Yes."

The next day, I went about the task of brushing up my resume and writing a cover letter. I wanted hunky to review, first, and he wasn't able to until the evening. After I made a few changes, I sent it to KOLO the next day.

I haven't heard from KOLO, not even an email stating they received my resume. So, now I'm left wondering what the deal is.

See, after I heard the "yes" and got my resume together, I started to feel that the job was mine. When I sent the resume in, I just had this overwhelming sense that I had done the right thing and would soon get a call. However, the call hasn't come.

I am trying to remind myself that a similar thing happened when I first applied at the company I'm with now. I applied, was told they wanted me, and cancelled the interview a day before it happened. It took two more tries (after they fired incompetent assistants) before I finally became an employee.

So maybe I shouldn't feel as if I was wrong in thinking the job is mine. Maybe it's just going to take some more time. After all, I didn't ask if it would happen this year!

Knight of Bats

I haven't done a reading in ages... mostly because I had a couple of professional readings recently, and didn't feel the need afterwards to keep reading on a daily basis.

Today, however, I felt the cards singing out to me to use them.

I wasn't sure what question to ask... as I shuffled the deck, I thought and thought about what I wanted to know, and it dawned on me: What is up with my energy level?

Using the Halloween Tarot, I pulled the Knight of Bats (Swords). Swords is the suit of conflict... interesting, because my energy levels feel conflicted. One minute I am tired and lethargic, the next I have energy. But I'm finding if I don't do anything constructive with that energy, I'm tired. Again.

The Knight is a card of action... I think it's calling me to me more like it and stop the cycle of lethargy. I think this card is telling me that my lethargy is coming from myself... from self-imposed boundaries and/or censorship.

A lot has happened to me since November, especially with regards to speaking my mind and being ostracized for it. For years I was silent... and when I finally found my voice, it seems to have caused problems.

I think the Knight of Bats is telling me that I have to rediscover my voice. It's there for a reason... don't be afraid of conflict and just speak.